I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been in a conversation or performing on stage and thought to myself: “You’re not focussing enough, Siobhan. You need to focus more. CENTRE YOURSELF. BE IN THE MOMENT. GET INTO FOCUS. CONNECT.”
I definitely feel like my lack of proper focus is probably why I have a habit of trailing off in the middle of…
Wait, what was I saying?
You may laugh, but I actually do this so frequently that my parents and friends tease me about it a lot… I try not to focus on that too much.
It’s taken me a while, but I think I’ve come to something of a breakthrough.
Telling myself to focus doesn’t mean that I suddenly centre in and live in the moment. Instead, I become fixated on how I’m not thinking about the right thing which leads to becoming even more distracted. I realised that in any context (whether on stage or real life), being in the moment meant just that. Just being in the moment.
There’s no need to sit there and repeat cliched mantras in my head like “Centre yourself!” or “Be in the moment!” or “Get in to focus!”. That won’t make me do any of those things. If I want to focus on something or be in the moment or whatever else, I just have to do it.
Which is no doubt easier said than done… But I feel like it’s those kind of things that will probably make me more adulty in the long run. I can’t think of any of the adults that I admire who would just stop mid sentence or mid blog without actually…
…But I guess I’m not quite at their level yet.
What’s something that needs your attention today?